Endurance

I'm probably the furthest thing from your mind these days, but rest assured you are still very dear to me.  I don't know if that means much of anything to you, but I gotta believe that it just might.

I'm still here, Beth.  Despite all the bad breaks and hard hits, I'm still here.  

And I still hope for the best.  Every single day.

I hope.

Wish

I think about you every day.
I miss you every day.
I wish you would talk to me.

My birthday's this week.
I wish I were able to spend it with you.
. . . But that's enough wishing for today.

Wherever you are, I hope you're well.

JVH (via text)
2012/05/21 (10:08 a.m.)

Own Side Now

I’m goin’ out on the town
Said I’m tired of chasin’ you down
And it’s not my right to always push you around
I’m on my own side now

Who’s gonna take me home?
'Cause I don’t wanna go it alone
Who’s gonna want me when I’m just somewhere you’ve been?
Who’s gonna want me now?
And who’s gonna take me home?

I'm gonna find me a true love
Said I'm through asking you if you knew, love
How much it meant to me
How it was meant to be
And how it all feels empty

Who’s gonna take me home?
'Cause I don’t wanna go it alone
Who’s gonna want me when I’m just somewhere you’ve been?
Who’s gonna want me now?
And who’s gonna take me home?

And who’s gonna take me home?
'Cause I don’t wanna go it alone
Who’s gonna want me when I’m just somewhere you’ve been?
Who’s gonna want me now?

Oh, who’s gonna take me home?
'Cause I don’t wanna go it alone
Who’s gonna want me when I’m just somewhere you’ve been?
Who’s gonna want me now?
And who’s gonna take me home?

I’m goin’ out on the town
Said I’m tired of chasin’ you down
And it’s not my right to always push you around
I’m on my own side now

Own
side
now

-- Caitlin Rose, "Own Side"
http://www.bfninyourears.net/music/Caitlin_Rose-Own_Side.mp3

Inalienable

Here's the simplest truth:

I didn't start out angry.

And after what you did,
After the lies you told,
After the promises you broke,
After the shit you pulled,

I have every right to be angry.

you. again.

You can.

You could.

You won't.

I guess that's it.  Good night.

The Long Haul

I used to joke that you wouldn't make it to February.

You lied.